Sun
should have been in the prime of his life. Instead, he was
a long-term patient in the Heart Lotus Ward for palliative
care at the Hualien Tzu Chi Medical Center. He was
unusually quiet and withdrawn, even for someone as ill as
himself. No matter how warmly our volunteers greeted him
and tried to cheer him up, he never smiled.
One day, some of our volunteers were entertaining the
Heart Lotus patients with singing and dancing. After
watching for a little while, Sun suddenly spoke up:
"It drives me crazy to see you dancing so
awkwardly!"
The volunteers, taken aback by Sun's abrupt comments,
asked him, "How should we dance then?" In
response, Sun climbed gingerly out of bed and began to
demonstrate the proper dance steps. He swayed his hands
and body while giving instructions to the volunteers:
"Move your hands up as if you were taking in the good
things; move your hands down as if throwing away the bad
stuff." In no time, he had the volunteers singing and
dancing alongside him.
It took dancing to bridge the gulf between us and Sun.
After that, he no longer shunned our overtures, and he
even began to open up to us. As we became more familiar
with him, we learned that he had once been a truck driver
with a happy family. Sadly, his life began to unravel when
his wife abandoned him and their infant son. He was forced
to single-handedly take care of his baby son while
continuing to drive his truck full time. When it was time
to hit the road, he would strap the baby into the seat
beside him. When necessary, he had to pull off the road to
bottle-feed him or change his diaper. And yet, despite the
challenges, Sun continued to be the best father he could
to his little son.
When his son was in elementary school, Sun found
himself getting thinner day by day. Unable to account for
his weight loss, he went to a hospital for an examination.
Soon he got the news he feared the most: he had been
diagnosed with gastric cancer.
Sun could not accept the grim facts. He was still young
and his child was so small. He began to close himself off,
and he grew more and more withdrawn. That was how we came
to know him in the Heart Lotus Ward.
Knowing that he was a Christian, our volunteers tried
to encourage him. "Didn't you teach us to take in the
good things (and put them in our hearts) and throw away
the bad (let go of our worries and unhappiness)? Come on,
let's sing some hymns to praise the Lord." He smiled
brightly at this suggestion, and he began to sing and
dance with us. We were all happy to see him in such good
spirits.
Before long, his condition stabilized and he was
discharged from the hospital. Before he left, he kept
telling our volunteers, "You must come and visit
me."
One day, we paid him a visit as promised. Sun's mother
and sister thanked us for our care and concern and told us
he had been a more cheerful person since his return from
the hospital. Sun took us through one photo album after
another as he shared with us his cherished memories. His
face beaming with pride, he also showed us a certificate
which stated that he had been ordained as a Presbyterian
elder.
Some time later, Sun was admitted into the Heart Lotus
Ward again. He was obviously much weaker than the last
time we had seen him. He knew that he didn't have long to
live, and he expressed his wish to donate his body for
medical research after he died. A few days later, he
decided to check out of the hospital. He wanted to spend
the rest of his days at home.
When we went to his home to visit him, we met some
medical personnel from the Tzu Chi hospital coming out of
his room. They had stopped by to check on him. All of them
looked very sad. Clearly, the end was drawing near. We
entered his room, gathered around him, and began to pray
and sing hymns for him. There was a calm, peaceful
expression on his face.
We received a phone call on our way back to the
hospital, telling us that Sun had passed away.
His body, as he had wished, was donated to the medical
school at Tzu Chi University. As he had taught us in his
life, so his body would teach others after his death.
"Take in the good things and throw away the bad"
was the message he left with all of us. Although Sun may
be gone, his wise words will live on in me forever.
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