When
we face challenges in life, we all embrace the same
attitudes: positive, optimistic, and never giving up.
On Chinese New Year's Eve, I saw the TV news report
about Lin Chung-ming's death. I was in tears for a long
time. Even now when I think of it, I still become very
disconsolate. I had sent him a letter a while before, but
I never thought that he would die a few months later.
A young boy with only one arm
I first met Chung-ming five years ago in a hospital. I
was twenty years old and he was only twelve. An old injury
on my knee had flared up again, and I had gone to the Tzu
Chi Hospital in Hualien for treatment. They discovered a
tumor on the bone, and I was pushed into an operating room
for a biopsy. Thus, I felt a little depressed.
After the surgery, a Tzu Chi volunteer, Yen Hui-mei,
brought Chung-ming to my bed. To my surprise, the little
boy had only one arm. Sister Yen told me his story.
Chung-ming came from a poor, single-parent family in
Miaoli, in northern Taiwan. His left arm had had a large
bulge for some time, for unknown reasons. If it was
accidentally touched, it would bleed incessantly. However,
the family was very poor and couldn't afford medical
treatment.
Chung-ming went to attend a Tzu Chi year-end ceremony.
The tumor on his left arm suddenly shot up streams of
blood. Volunteers promptly arranged for him to check into
the Tzu Chi Hospital in Hualien. The boy was diagnosed
with Rhabdomyo sarcoma. Since the tumor was so enormous,
the doctor had to amputate his left arm.
Chung-ming came to see me shortly after his surgery. He
was an active boy, so even though the wound was still
painful, he hopped into the ward behind the volunteer with
one empty sleeve swinging. Sister Yen introduced us and he
very politely called me "Elder Sister."
Sister Yen mentioned that Chung-ming, who was still in
elementary school, wanted to study English. Since I was a
student at the department of foreign languages, she asked
me whether I could teach him English.
Teach him English? Now I was completely dumbfounded and
very embarrassed. Although I was in my third year, I had
never once tutored anyone and I was scared to do it. How
should I teach him English? I liked the language so I kept
up with it, but I never thought of how I learned the
language or how I should teach the language to others.
With
the expectation in Chung-ming's eyes and the encouragement
from Sister Yen and my parents, I had to force myself to
accept my first student.
So there we were, a teacher with one foot in a cast and
a student with only one arm. That kind of English lesson
had to be very rare.
The hospital was not a school, and the ward was not a
classroom. I simply grabbed a piece of paper and wrote
down the twenty-six English letters. I illustrated each
one with a word and some crude pictures. And so we started
our lessons.
A few days later, the result of my biopsy came out and
I was transferred to Taiwan University Hospital in Taipei.
I spent the following weeks fighting against the disease,
and lost contact with Chung-ming.
My first time as an English teacher only lasted for
half an hour. Nevertheless, the memory is still vivid to
me.
A good student, friend and
comrade
I sent a card every year to Sister Yen, but I never had
the courage to ask her about Chung-ming. To us, it was not
a question of whether we were still in touch with each
other--it was a question of whether he was still alive.
Last year, I read about Chung-ming in a newspaper
article about his fight against his cancer. He also
starred in "The Plane with One Wing," a Tzu Chi
TV dramatization of his own story. I felt more relaxed,
seeing that he was indeed still alive. I sent a card to
Sister Yen and asked her to forward it to Chung-ming.
"The Plane with One Wing" was a nickname
given to Chung-ming by some children living in the
disaster areas after the big earthquake of September 21,
1999. Chung-ming went with Tzu Chi volunteers to the
disaster areas to bring courage to the children there. The
children saw how he courageously refused to give up. Even
though Chung-ming had only one "wing," he still
flew happily in the sky of life.
Shortly afterwards, I received a reply from him. On the
envelope he gave me the title of "English
teacher" instead of "Miss." An English
teacher for only half an hour? I laughed.
There was a photo of him inside. The boy from five
years ago had turned into a handsome young man. There was
still a smile on his face, and it did not show how much
suffering he had gone through.
A few days ago, a volunteer phoned me at home and asked
me how I was doing. In our conversation, Chung-ming's name
was mentioned. I found out that his cancer had
metastasized and Chung-ming had been forced to receive
chemotherapy countless times! When I recalled the photo he
had sent half a year ago, it showed that he was a sunshine
boy who had endured much hardship!
We didn't communicate for five years after I left
Hualien. But perhaps since both of us were ill, we still
seemed to know each other when we started writing to each
other. Maybe there was a great gap in terms of our ages or
our medical treatments, but we embraced the same attitude
towards challenges in life: positive, optimistic, and
never giving up.
During those days, I was too busy with my recovery to
accept any other students, but a half-hour lesson with
Chung-ming rewarded me with his full appreciation five
years later. I felt guilty to be called his teacher. I
wrote back to him saying that we were like friends--good
friends who supported each other on the paths of our
difficult lives.
Indeed, whether we were teacher and student or just
friends, I firmly believe that both of us became stronger
after our unexpected challenges.
I went back to school after suspending my education for
a year. After graduating from the university, I passed the
exams and entered graduate school. I also took some
courses in education. In a course on special education,
the professor told us that students who had been
disfigured by tumors were considered special students.
I thought of Chung-ming, a student, a friend and a
comrade. Sometimes I imagine myself becoming a teacher one
day and teaching many students. However, I will never
forget my encounter with the "Plane with One
Wing."
I want to dedicate this article to the brave warrior of
life, Lin Chung-ming. I hope that he may rest in peace
with no more suffering. |